Archive for August, 2009

The "banpaal" I discovered.
I had a wonderful two days.
Yesterday I decided to make full use of the bicycle I can borrow from the Center and went for a ride. The weather was beautiful. It was sunny and a bit windy. I went past the Amstel river and just enjoyed being outside. I even discovered one… »

Today the Earth has turned once around the Sun since I consumed my last drop of alcohol!
I want to thank everyone that has stood by me over the last year. Your concern and love have helped me travel the road. Do what I have learnt this year and give yourself and extra pat on the… »

Either/or
I am either strong or weak
And…and
I find strength in admitting I am vulnerable.
Either/or
I either do something well or I am a failure.
And…and
By allowing myself to fail, I admit the possibility for… »

I keep thinking about what I think are the differences between people who relapse as opposed to people who don’t.
This is made more difficult by the fact that I use myself as a frame of reference, so I may just be projecting myself into the theories.
However, there is one thing that keeps nagging at me,… »

I’m totally knackered, but the work shop has been painted (not by me) and only about 70 cushions left to go (about 100 done by me, I’ve lost count).
Now three days of rest ad then finishing touches (just small things like removing a bath and toilet and drilling a hole in a wall!) to do.
It’s… »

A few days ago I wrote about one of the people from the clinic that I met this weekend.
I have since been thinking about what it is that makes it so hard for a lot of people to accept and stay on top of their addiction.
In many ways I think that the fact that I… »

Less emotionally charged news today, unless having a blast at work can be called that.
We’re currently in the end stages of building a new workspace for our meditation cushion venture and that means bringing all the things together.
So far I’ve spent my time wallpapering and painting, as well as thinking along with the others on… »

Once in a while you get a day that draws your attention to both how far you have come and how difficult the journey was and is.
Yesterday I called the clinic to ask about some plans I have about celebrating my first year without alcohol. I have been thinking about what feels “right and I… »

Wow, talk about a momentous day…
Today I had a session at the adoption agency prior to them sending off a letter to my biological mother to see if she is willing to get in contact with me.
If you are anything at the people around me (or maybe you are them), I am sure you are… »

Well, talk about getting back into the rhythm of work…
The last two days I worked with much enthousiasm and as a result I could barely keep my eyes open past eight o’clock in the evening!
At least I now wake up at an early hour again, so basically I am back to a more normal day/night… »