Back after a long hiatus.
Well, it’s certainly been a very long time since I’ve posted anything on here.
More about the why of that later; such a lot of things have happened in the last few months, I feel quite overwhelmed by them.
First of all, jobwise. From starting last year at Lotus Design as a cushion filler, I am now co-responsible for the running of the operation. The two of us are actually running the company, which is something I’d never thought would happen, but which I find very exciting.
Lots of new ideas are flowing, and lots of things that are going well will have to keep going well. At the moment we are still in the stage of finding out in which particular areas we will be dividing our jobs. Coming september we will be officially in charge.
I’ve also been continuing my studies. I now am doing an intensive course on Skillful Means, Tarthang Tulku Rinpoches vision on how work can be turned into Buddhist practice, or, on a more mundane level, how work can contribute to your general well-being. It’s a satisfying subject to study and I hope I will be able to put my knowledge and insights to good use.
I’ve also been studying Sankrit for about three months now. Not just learning a few phrases, but I’m learning the language itself. I love languages, always have, and I find I get the same kick out of this one as I did from Ancient Greek and Latin. It’s actually easier than both of them, but that may be because I have a headstart.
From my learning Sankrit also comes a newfound feeling that we really need a good working language for use in books and classes on meditation and dharma studies. From what I have seen now, authors use words very sloppily and that can only lead to sloppy practice. Did you know that what is generally called “mindfulness” in common language these days does not cover what is called mindfulness in Buddhist manuals? Never mind, I will go into that particular subject in a post to come. I have much to say on the subject. ;)
In short, I’m back, for now.
This brings me to the reason I’ve not been posting. The bottom line is that I felt that I wasn’t qualified to talk about things that I started posts about. I would start a post on some thing that sparked my interest in some book and then halfway give up because I got the overpowering feeling I didn’t really know what I was talking about.
The things I have been posting about for a year were the result of years of bad living followed by an intense therapy. That rooted the things I have written in experience and allowed me to talk what I felt and feel is sense.
The new things are just that: new. I can’t write about what I haven’t lived through, what I don’t know well enough and what I haven’t studied with both heart and mind as thoroughly as I feel is necessary. Others may have different standards for that, but I just can’t.
So, I now feel I have some subjects I am certain enough about again to write some things about again. The well will probably dry up again, but now you know why. It’s not that I don’t want to write, but *if* I write, I want it to be something I feel is worthwhile.
I hope you will find it so, too.
Have a lovely day.
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